Monday, June 28, 2010

My laptop has a spine as flexible and slippery as a banana peel

and yes i know that title makes no sense
what i mean if this laptop got much more broken a would break it
The audio only works if i plug in headphones, if i the n unplug the headphones the inbuilt speakers suddenly work
i just plugged in a memory stick and it wasn't recognised, its running vista (I don't need to say more)
it has at least 20 virii that the anti virus doesn't pickup, i tryed to install photoshop and flash, but the disc wasn't working.
So i cant play flash games
i am going to download oldblivion eventullly but knowing my luck, the laptop won't meet the minimum system req.
I have watched 2 many zero puntuation vids.
Loving the fact he is crazy and a aussie (Just like me)
Wondering if i should remove all punct from this post as a tribute
but you kno me (CBF)
this post sounds like a bunch of twitter posts slammed back to back
i have never been online reg. enuff on a computer that has unrestricted internet access to use twitter with a point
so i blog
yea
i am going to see if rebooting this laptop will help.
but i know that it will prob make things worse so i am going to go into the task mang. (If it will let me) and end all the strange processes.
So i hopefully will post soon


This laptop is almost as stupid as redbubble

Thursday, June 24, 2010

You tube exitement

I know a my youtube is more silent that a graveyard
but very soon i will be adding a series of borderlands, oblivion and poss. fallout 3 video tutorials. (I will tell you when i start realesing them) they may be rubbish, but please watch them. As always shadows love is comming soon, my Desktop computer has crashed so i'm on the laptop, im at work exp. and loving it. G2G in about 3 sec. but im gonna stretch it.
But i dunno what to write, it will come to me as soon as i am offline.
See ya boys, babes and bots

Monday, June 21, 2010

Commenting is working

Commenting is working right now
SO COMMENT
ha
I don't have a clue why it has started working but it has.
so there is no reason why you cant comment.
but plz no flaming

Friday, June 18, 2010

To make up for the delay...

in the realese of that shadows love, here is a bunch of poems and an allagory
Sorry again guys

My True Paradox

Clarity
Echoes of meaning
Intelligence

Love
In the silence
Forgotten

Noise
Fog and mist
Screams

Fate
Making life easy
Lies

Missing
Your Imperfect life
Adoring

Drawing
A wondrous picture
Manually

Dreams
Of just you
Joy

Velvet
Your supposed flaws
Beauty

Sorrow
I am alone
Crowded

Clear
My shadowed path
Indistinguishable

Movement
So perfectly balanced
Tranquility

Home
Is with you
Undone

Silhouette
Of your form
Alone

Love
Still my Mystery
Unsure

Fallen
Risen
Silence
Screams
My true Paradox

Allegory

There was once a boy named David, he was brave and kind living in an important village on the fringes of the kingdom. This village did have fertile sol to grow crops or deposits of valuable ore, its importance was in the knowledge it had.
This knowledge was in mediation and stopping the escalation of wars. It was the odd one out in an area filled with battling villages. Every few months a couple of village elders would come asking for help in settling disputes. In return for there help the village would get supplies of skins food, wood and the occasional specialty item. But in between these visits there was not much happening, there were no classes for boys and girls and the elders were always debating about this and that.
One day David and his friend, who were mostly boys, while skimming stones on the lake decided to take aim at a small bird with there stones. A tough young boy cracked the bird’s skull and a young lass picked it up and marched back to camp with it, along with the rest of David’s friends. It became a game where the person who killed the most got a small piece of leather or silver from the elders.
The elders thought this game was a great character building activity for the children.
A few months later the eldest children were offered swords and other weapons by the other tribes who had heard of there exploits. The elders were in outrage, these weapons are the cause of all evil in this world they all agreed and the children and the rest of the tribe were banned from even laying eyes upon them. And the whole tribe agreed that this was the way to go.
Years passed and David became of age, He wanted to use a bow to catch larger animals now he was of age, but the elders reaffirmed there statement of previous years, “Weapons are evil.”
David grew older, still believing that weapons were not the cause of the wars that surrounded to village. He was accepted to the council of elders and fought hard for change, but still nothing.
Years after that, The warring ended, There were great festivals and feasts all around the surrounding villages. David’s village was left out, and now there was no way for them to earn supplies. The once warring villages heard this and offered food or weapons to the village.
The village was offered a choice between living reliantly of the kindness of the people around them and hunting; the elders were drawn. Half not wanting to be so dependant and half fearing that weapons will cause war.
David who still strongly believed that every one should have the right to hunt with weapons made a speech to the council “These tools are just what, tools. Tools have no intelligence, they cannot breed murderers, if we keep strong in our views, we could starve on the words of our “friends”. As long as keep our values though, we can ban there use by children but allow those who are mature to use them, we will be free.”
All of he elder were convinced by this passionate speech, and decided to take the weapons. The children were not allows to use or touch the weapons. They lived peacefully forever after.

The End

Statement of intention

The issue in my allegory is the lack of a R18+ rating for video games in Australia.
Many People are under the delusion that video games:

a) Cause violent behavior in real life
b) Are just for children

In my allegory I use medieval times to represent that our society is living in the past compared to other progressive views around the world.
I also use children to represent the gaming industries humble beginning (60s game arcades and then the creation of the “Nintendo generation” late 70s - 80s)
I use stones to represent the innocent beginning of video games and swords as the modern games, and this progression representing the aging and evolution of the Nintendo Generation.
The fear of war being the fear of violence in society, and the choice between food and weapons being an amplified trigger between social ideas and social pressure.

His touch

His touch
Leaves a tingle over my skin
His kiss
A burn

His left hand
On the base of my spine
His right
Firmly holding mine

A movement
A twirl
A spin

His chest
Against my back, I can feel his heartbeat
His Shoulder
Solid yet Warm

His eyes
Are fire, a determination beneath a lie
His hair
Reflecting a golden light

A step
A stroke
A measure

His right arm
Holding me tight
His left
Holding me tighter

His Smile
Warming me in its glow
His legs
Firmly planted on the ground

No Footsteps
No roads
No wind

Music for my soul
Two bodies one essence
Absence of Dark
Yet not Vivid

Why I was crying

I cried and he touched my face
As the tears trace
Down his jaw
It was what I saw

He made me shed tears
Show him my fears
Only more violently
Insistently

My sobs made him shudder
When we could not utter
He saw the dove
Over and above

I felt like I was falling
As the pale bird was diving
I look at my beloved
He was all I loved

Why was I crying
I was not dying
I was so animated
I was elated

And he was breathing
Holding me unyielding
I was no longer descending
Nor was I rising

I was with my adored
I could not be bored
I could not be sad
I could not be bad

It was the present
And not the descent
The countryside was bright
Filled with his light

And then my reality
Was torn apart
As I awoke
So near yet so far

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Quotes to Love











Here is a bunch of my favorite love related quotes in art form

Monday, June 7, 2010

I know its been ages, but im back

I have been so busy with exams and whatnot
But i have plans to write more soon,
I know the shadows love was ment to be realesed... um 3 weeks ago or something, but there have been some technical problems.
I am trying to motivate the tank , roxychick13 and crazyking 2 write someting.
but its not working. If they don't write someting soon I am kicking there butts out of here!
Cheers
h0110wPeTal
XXX